Thursday, January 31, 2008

I'm Here...

but not really. Sorry for the lack of blog love lately. I have been so super busy this week! Last weekend I was down on the Cape with some of the best girlfriends a girl could ask for and I have fun pics and stories to share from that. Now if I could just find the time to download my pictures. I'm going to try and post on that later tonight. Hugs!

Monday, January 21, 2008

Just When I Was Thinking Happy Thoughts

...I have to go and get SICK! I wasn't feeling so hot yesterday, but I thought it was just a blue day. This morning I woke up with a fever and a killer headache...yuck! I kept myself wrapped up in my pjs and blankets today and camped out on the couch. It's days like this that I really wish I had more than 5 decent channels of cable television. I'm thinking of that upgrade package a little more seriously after today.

After lots of sleep, fluids and Advil, the fever seems to be gone for now. The headache is still hanging on, but I'm thinking after a good night's sleep tonight I'll be back to good. I have to be...this weekend is my girl's weekend getaway on the Cape and I have to be at 110% for that.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

After the Rain...

you have to keep looking for the rainbow!

This past week has been really tough on me, which is why I haven't really been blogging. Last weekend I learned about a friend of my ex boyfriend who died suddenly in a car accident. I didn't really know him that well; had only hung out with him a few times at gatherings, but it was still so surreal to think of someone my own age dying. It really got me thinking again about how I'm living my life.

Earlier this year, I made some really tough decisions in order to take better care of myself, but this week I learned that I was falling back into some of my old bad habits. I started letting my insecurities get the best of me and realized that I was letting myself be second choice to a lot of people in my life. I am one of those people that is always willing to put themselves on the line for their friends, and unfortunately I was feeling that some of my friends were not willing to do the same for me.

It's always difficult when you feel like you are giving more to others than they are willing to give for you, both in friendships and relationships...and you find yourself starting to shut down and fall into a funk. My initial reaction was to just build up those walls of protection and try to keep everyone out...but this only led to more feelings of disappointment and sadness. I started remembering that your world is a reflection of the attitude you give off...and I was attracting some major negative energy because that is what I was giving off.

As much as growing and changing is good for you, it is never easy. And with each experience, you realize that you have more to learn about yourself than anything/anyone else! Because of this week, I KNOW I have a lot of work to do on ME and making sure I'm putting myself first again. I don't want to be negative anymore this week...I want to go into tomorrow searching for the rainbow instead of standing in the rain.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Friday Night in Pictures





Here are some of the fun pics from Friday night. Thanks for the CD Stephen!

Sunday, January 13, 2008

New Year's Eve and Friends

I finally got a hold of a New Year's Eve picture from my friends this weekend. We were all looking pretty cute, if I do say so myself!


This weekend was fun-filled and full of friends...just the way I like it! Friday night at the Barley House with the gang (should have fun pictures to post from that soon) and then onto a party at our friends' house once the bar closed. Sorry to those of you that ended up with late night phone calls...apparently I was quite the drunk dialer. Looking through my phone on Saturday morning, it looks like I called about 8 people and text messaged a few more, some I even called more than once...Oops! I guess I just wanted to make sure everyone was having a fun night out like we were!

Saturday morning I had to get up pretty early because my wonderful dentist made a special appointment so I could come in and get my toothache checked. That meant getting up at 6:30am to be in Newport for 8:00am...not so fun. But the good news is there is nothing wrong with my tooth. Apparently I just have a very long root on that tooth that is all the way up in my sinuses, so they think it's just a sinus infection and can be cleared up with some over the counter sinus meds.

Back to Concord after that for some shopping with Joanne, then back downtown last night to meet up with the gang to watch the Pats game and play some pool. I opted out of the after-party last night though...had to get myself to bed!

Today is filled with all the boring chores I've been putting off this week...laundry, cleaning the apartment, paying bills. Then I'll round out the weekend with a trip to the gym. Hope everyone had a nice weekend!

Monday, January 7, 2008

Better Late than Never

As promised, here are some fun pictures from Christmas vacation in Colorado! It was a wonderful trip and I was so happy to be able to spend the holidays with my family. Thank you so much Mom and Dad for making sure that we were all together, it means more than you'll ever know.






Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Happy New Year!

Wow! I can't believe it is 2008 already! I'm excited about all the opportunities that lie ahead of me this year. 2007 brought about a lot of changes in my life and I learned a lot of life lessons...some the hard way, some a little easier. I'm grateful for all the experiences that 2007 brought me, because they have certainly helped become the person that I am today. Or, more accurately, helped me regain some aspects of the person that I use to be!

Now, I've never really been one for making resolutions, but I do have a few things that I want to focus on this year, so I thought if I wrote them down, I'd be more apt to make them happen.


1. RELAX!
I need to remind myself to just relax, take a deep breath and let things happen as they are suppose to. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in my own mind and thoughts that I over think just about EVERYTHING. I need to just enjoy the moments as they happen instead of trying to analyze them and make complete sense of everything.

2. CREATE I need to get my creative spark back. I want to start painting and drawing again this year. I want to work on my scrapbooks and crafts. I want to take more photographs and capture more moments this year. It has been far too long since I have made my art part of my daily life and I truly miss it. It has always been such a great outlet for me and I want to make it a top priority in my life again. It makes me happy!

3. SPEND MORE TIME WITH FRIENDS I realized over this past year, that I have let far too many friendships go by the wayside. I am grateful that many of them are still here for me and I'm excited to create new memories with them all.

4. MAINTAIN BALANCE Continue to strive for balance in all areas of my life this year. I have made a strong effort to begin this one in 2007, but I want to continue and improve on it in 2008. Balance between work and play, health and nutrition, mind, body and spirit. Always a challenge, but always worth the effort!

5. PLAN LESS Some days it feels like I am scheduled every minute of the day. It's my own fault, because I am one of those people that plans out just about everything. I want to be more spontaneous and accept more last minute invitations. I want to say "yes" to those last minute drinks with the girls or head to that late night movie with a friend.

These are my goals for 2008! I just know it's going to be a great year...and I'm excited to get it started.